The life of Caos
(Source: amendings)
i know
(Source: earthpilot)
Elseachay aithfay adlerway.
I used to have this bestfriend. She was more like a sister. We did everything together. & we swore we were twins. She had long brown hair & big brown eyes. Her skin was flawless , except for in the cold…her cheeks chapped a little. She went through alot. And when i mean alot i mean more then a young woman should go through. She faced fears everyday of never being perfect , only because this ugly world forced her into that mindset. She was crazy…the crazy type of crazy. She was beautiful. She was smart , she was funny & she had the most amazing boyfriend God himself could give her. I talk about her in a past tense because we arnt close anymore & i do believe from the outside looking in were strangers now. All because of social networking and misunderstandings. I never ment to hurt her , because God knows the last thing i would want to do is hurt her. Shes the only person on this planet thats breathing that understands the way my mind works. But in the end , because of my anger and insecurities, i hurt those she loved…which hurt her. Im writing this because she still struggles , as i see from the sad and unhappy posts on her blog. I just want her to know as i told her before : you are beautiful. You were before the thoughts and negative emotions, & you still are. Your smart. Smarter then the other girls your age. Those thoughts? Can go fuck themselves. & just because we dont talk like we used to & you probably hate me , doesnt mean you cant come to me for help.because you are the last person that i want to see unhappy , when you deserve all the happiness in the world after everything youve been through. If i could smoke right now , ide smoke a blunt and not get you in the shot. Ide heller you from my window even though you cant hear me , & ide do anything in my power to make you smile. Your the shit chels. & dont ever forget that.
